Not easy anymore . . .

Been studying for about an hour. Taking notes, solving problems, memorizing some formulas for my ProbStat subject and trying to understand but….it’s so hard. In fact, I’m not sure if I really understood a single thing from what I’ve spent my time on.

I’m getting worried cause I’ve been doing so poorly in my comprehension of even simple things. I’m kinda frustrated thinking that many people around me saying I’m a smart girl when I was in my elementary through high school days, and that I don’t face this kind of dilemma but now…(ugh!)

So many adult things occupied my thinking that kinda distorted it and I don’t know how to recover them. I don’t know what action should I take from the many steps available (I think). . . .



I’m writing this blog to bring out what I want to whose readily be judged😄, and to the other person on the other side, for I believe there will be at least one person who will found this piece😊. But before anything else, I want to share with you what I currently want you to realize. It’s about my opinion on “opinion”. Why? Because I want you to believe and think of yourself without guilt.

So many “truths” presented to us on our way every day. 😯but not these are the realest truth, for they are always contradicting in some ways. Which one is it? A, B, C, or D? Supposed the answer is B, but you chose C, she chooses A, for him it’s D and there are the guided ones who chose B as their outline and succeed in the end. There must be a belief on every concrete and abstract perceived thing, that not every single individual shares the same. For an instance, a ball⚽. Some may view it as a source of enjoyment after a long, boring day at school and a way to demonstrate the skills they wat to acquire🎾🏀🏃. To some, it is just a round, rubberized, elastic tool to torture and humiliate them and drag their other effort in achieving a passing grade⚾😡. To some, it is a funny thing that they could not figure out how it became one or it didn’t come a time to think why it was but just feel the sensation it gives them😅. And a lot other more perception on this tiny object called ball. Some contained only hundred thousand of bytes some will reach a million trillion of terabytes. Now, I don’t know how much or what information consists such a large number of perception, if it even exists. But, I’m sure know only little and some truth is the truth and some is just a fallacy made up, so my claim will be true or it’s just my imagination my mind could make up.

The thing is, we thought our perceptions that lead to our beliefs are the truths, that A, C and D are B. But they are not. This error did not stop there, it spread to all other branches that connected with this perception and belief. And it is a huge matrix there. For our perception is the engine of our action, that’s another claim from my perception, again it may be true or it may just seem true. And our action affects other people and other elements in the environment and not just the system itself, our body.

That is why, I think it is very important to examine what we believe😉